Determined

Our mission in life should be to figure out who we truly are. I suppose we all have a definition of what we stand for but trust me unless you've gone off you're straight path to venture further into life you truly don't know what you are about or what you are capable of. The modesty of one's self worth is truly deceiving to the human eyes, for we all play a character and within that character comes some soul searching.
We're not perfect by any means, life is full of human error and that's just reality. We are searching for that moment in life that will define and form the person we are meant to be today, and perhaps some of us will never reach that place, giving up before our goal has been achieved.
At the end of the day we're all just a shell looking to be filled with something meaningful, and the misunderstandings of life is what leads us at times to be misinterpreted. We've wondered this life aimlessly searching for something right perhaps that goodness at the end of the tunnel in that far off distant light.
Let destiny be your guide while we try to take each steps in strides, never giving up for life is like a maze and a few wrong path won't deter us from finding the end to freedom. If we only believe we can surely achieve the impossible, let no one set limitations for you not even yourself, step forward into the impossible again and again till it becomes possible.
We are only as weak as we let ourselves to be, the mind gets tired faster than the heart does so lead with your heart at all times, if you can see it you can achieve it and if you can't see it but believe it you can work to it. Let you're proudest moments come from knowing that determination will build us to be stronger in the end and lead us to where we out to be. We will get there eventually it's just a matter of how bad do you want it, how far are you willing to drive the body to get there and who do you truly want to be at the end of the day?
There is so many times we think that we are giving a 110% but that's only to our standards push yourself till you can't push anymore and beyond that and only then you'll be able to see what you can truly accomplish.
We've made to many mistakes to turn back now there is no telling where destiny will lead us.... And perhaps not knowing will be our advantage in the end, for success comes in the morning. 9/03/2006

Let it go

Let it go for 2006...
By T. D. Jakes
There are people who can walk away from you hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. I mean hang up the phone. When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.
The bible said that, they came out from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 John 2:19]
People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if they are not joined to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go it doesn't mean that they are a bad person it just means that their part in the story is over. And you've got to know when people's part in your story is over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead. You've got to know when it's dead got to know when it's over.
Let me tell you something. I've got the gift of good-bye. It's the tenth spiritual gift, I believe in good-bye. It's not that I'm hateful, it's that I'm faithful, and I know whatever God means for me to have He'll give it to me. And if it takes too much sweat I don't need it. Stop begging people to stay. Let them go!!
If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong to you and was never intended for your life, then you need to......LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to past hurts and pains ..... LET IT GO!!!
If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and see your worth..... LET IT GO!!!
If someone has angered you ........LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...... LET IT GO!!!
If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction....! .. LET IT GO!!!
If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets your needs or talents ... LET IT GO!!!
If you have a bad attitude.......LET IT GO!!! I
f you keep judging others to make yourself feel better...... LET IT GO!!!
If you're stuck in the past and God is trying to take you to a new level in Him...... LET IT GO!!!
If you are struggling with the healing of a broken relationship....... LET IT GO!!!
If you keep trying to help someone who won't even try to help themselves......LET IT GO!!!
If you're feeling depressed and stressed ........ LET IT GO!!!
If there is a particular situation that you are so used to handling yourself and God is saying "take your hands off of it," then you need to...... LET IT GO!!!
Let the past be the past. Forget the former things. GOD is doing a new thing for 2006!!! LET IT GO!!!
Get Right or Get Left .. Think about it, and then ... LET IT GO!!!
"The Battle is the Lord's!" During the next 60 seconds, Stop whatever you are doing, and take this opportunity. (Literally it is only ONE minute!) All you have to do is the following: Simply say "The Lords Prayer" for the person that sent you this message:The Lords Prayer
Our Father, who are in Heaven, Hallowed be Thy Name,
Thy Kingdom Come, Thy Will be done, on Earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day, our daily bread and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil. For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power, and the Glory, forever.
Amen.
Next, stop and think and appreciate God's power in your life, for doing what you know is pleasing to Him. If you are not ashamed to do this, follow the instructions! Jesus said, If you are ashamed of me, I will be ashamed of you before My Father" If you are not ashamed, send this message... Only if you believe. "Yes, I love my God! . He is my fountain of Life and My Savior. He Keeps me going day and night. Without Him, I am no one. But with Him, I can do everything, Christ is my strength." This is not a test, this is for real. If you love God and you are not ashamed of all the great things that He has done for you, send this to everyone you know, and the person that sent it to you!! God loves you and watches over you everyday, so make the most of this day. God Bless.

( I got this in an email and was truly inspired to put it up as the next blog, it's so true people are able to leave us at anytime we shouldn't try and keep someone close that doesn't want to be close to us as well. I believe we all have our own battles.... Like the saying says if we let them go and they come back to us then it was meant to be...... But if they don't come back then it wasn't. I've always said if certain people in our past were meant to be in the future they will be there no if's and's or but's about it because destiny has already molded a place for them in time. If we don't see them there then by all means there journey in our lives has ended they've left the mark or impression they were meant to, and perhaps that's all well need to take with us, as sad as it may be......... It is hard at times to let someone or something go but God hears our cries when we call out to him to give us strenght. I hope to hear your thoughts on this piece for it truly is thought provoking. From this day forward let it go whatever it maybe, knowing that it may return if it was yours to begin with or meant to be.)

How do you want to be remembered

How do you honestly want to be remembered? I'm sure most of us would like to be remember as the person that lived life to it's fullest or that was giving, caring, and wonderful, but what were we really like? The outward appearance displays a much more dramatic picture of what we really are or were. If you die today looking back on life and all that you've accomplish would you be happy leaving the impression of how you lived? Take a good look at life in general how people waste it on drugs, prostitution, killing, robbing, deceiving and other stupid things. All that life really ask from us I suppose is to live it to the fullest, but for some strange reason that's so hard to do. Most people figure in order to live life to it's fullest you must have money to do the things you've always wanted to do, but what if you don't? Are you suppose to wait around playing the Lott till you strike it rich and are able to do the things you've always wanted to? Living life to the fullest should take on a different meaning from this day forward it's the little things in life that matter, not the big or medium stuff it's the little things. If we can't learn to appreciate the little things then how are we able to move on to the bigger things and enjoy them. Life I figure is a gift if you wake up on the right side of the earth then by all means thank God for that, your time on earth is not done at least not for today so enjoy it. Take time to find the good in everything and everyone. For every minute spent mad is a minute you'll never get back, a minute you waste instead of being happy, a minute you could of done something productive with, a minute you could of made someone smile or laugh, a minute you could of help some one whose lost faith in life to find it back again, I minute you could of told someone I love you, a minute you could of just ......Exhale, breath and dismiss what has made you pissed.
Just fully live life......Everything happens for a reason try and find the good in everything it's there we just have to look harder. Never go to bed mad at love ones, try your best never to say the things you don't mean for they can come back to bite you in the ass.
Love more, hug more, be more open, never put off tomorrow what you can do today, cherish the little things such as being able to smell, see,feel, taste, and speak, care more, embrace more. Take time to enjoy the weather, the company of friends, conversation, being alone and hobbies. Strive to be remembered as the person you want to be, live by your rules and no one else's, free yourself completely from peoples expectations, judgments, hopes, dreams, and leave room for destiny to guide you to were your suppose to be. Never live your life the way someone would want you to but live it the way that's best for you, but respect the fact that people care for you as well and see at the same time in there eyes what's best for you. Never clash but try to find a medium working in unity to get whatever it is you need to get done accomplished. Strive everyday to be something better than you were yesterday.............Just be you, living life out loud from this day forward.

Past or Future

I shouldn't let the fact that everyone has an opinion get to me. I'm able to respect the fact that we're all equally different, however what I'm unable to accept is the fact that people feel the need to degraded others merely on the fact that they screwed up once before. If wiping the slate clean means wiping the slate clean then shouldn't we at least show that person we have the faith in them that they will change? The past is haunting enough why should we drag it up in front of them tempting them to turn that way again, I'm sure people in there past wouldn't of judged them the way we do now. Why are we so quick to point out other peoples past problems then focus on there recovery? Have we forgotten that we as well have a past and if we keep pointing the fingers ours will eventually come to light to haunt us, and making us ashame of our past life, showing that it is a shame just as the next persons. Yesterday doesn't make up the person we are today, we have the ability to change if we truly want to. We can't change anything about the past so we shouldn't take it with us into our future, we're able to be something different now if we truly want to be. Everything happens for a reason so whose to say that it wasn't suppose to happen like that so we can be where we are now on a path to a better start? Consider it to be salvation in the making, it's saved us from where we could of been (down the wrong road). Everything happens to us for a reason so let us take this with us to make us stronger, let it be our conviction to a better start there's no point looking back now.
We can look to the past and go backwards and prove those who were rooting against us that they were right about us all along or we can move on in the future striving to be something different better than what we were able to be back then. We can listen to what everyone says about us if we want but we'll get no where. Sure let them ramble at the mouth but don't listen to them for to long for there words are like poison and will eventually penetrate into our minds depriving it of oxygen and clouding our ability to think for ourselves, eventually resulting in us excepting what they're saying about us to be true. Don't you see they won't be happy until they see us self destruct, we should use there negative energy to push us up. Now the choice is ours what will each of us choose.............................. It's quite simple PAST or FUTURE.
If we stumble along in life aimlessly for to long we'll lose ourselves.
The healing will start the minute we want it to......... will you prove them wrong or yourslef?

My belief, my daily affirmation

I believe that something else wonderful is going to happen to me today.
I knew that what I fear I must attract, and what I expected I will experience.
I know that fear is a shadow of the mind held by ignorance and darkness.
I know that when I hold my fears up to the light of reason and intelligence,
that it cannot stand the light and must disappear.
I am too smart, too intelligent and brilliant to
allow a figment of my imagination to push me around
I know that fear is faith upside down and
a belief in the wrong thing.
Fear is born out of negativism which is a conglomeration
of dark and sinister
shadows in the mind and there is no power in a shadow.
I have no alliance with poverty.
I am strong, whole,
perfect, powerful, radiant, illumined and inspired,
harmonious and happy.

~ Author unknown

I was looking through this binder my mom had of articles and stuff she found motivating and I came across this typed up page. This is what I'm striving to believe and become with each day. I hope you all find this just as inspiring as I did, for the motivation and key to success lies within these words.

Time is of the essence

Live each moment to it's fullest for you never know what tomorrow has enstore for you. Life is a precious gift and no matter how hard it is to be in it at times, we poses the ability to do something about it. We shouldn't always have to take the hard way to learn these lessons of life.
There is no past it's gone and there is no future because it hasn't past. All we have to look to is this moment, the present, right now we need not look to far away from it before we lose ourselves from within. Everything we encounter in life can be incorporated into making us a better person. We all poses the passion within ourselves to be better, but most of us lack the drive.
So many people think life isn't' worth the living unless you have someone to live it for. If you aren't able to make yourself happy how do you expect to make someone else happy? You're not to be selfish in bring someone into your life in thinking that they will make it better. It's not fair to depend on someone you want to be with to bring you that kind of happiness, you should poses happiness from within before you embed yourself into the life of another. If we would just take the time to focus on ourselves in finding out who we really are deep down inside most of us wouldn't be so unhappy or putting ourselves in unhappy relationships.
"Our greatest happiness does not depend on the condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result of a good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just pursuits."~ Thomas Jefferson
In order to be a better person we should start to really find ourselves. My mom told me once never be afraid to stand alone. Some "me" time would be a start, meditating on the things you want to accomplish or be. Anything in life is possible the only person who could stop you is you. The road blocks in life are to give us that determination to keep going and never give up, when face with a road block you should always remember there is another way it's just up to us to find it.
We all know that there is something better in life enstore for us, if we just envision what we want we could get there, with time anything is possible.
"Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us." ~Earl Nightingale

Relinquished

What you think or believe to be me was of the past and that scares me. I'm unable at this point to pin point my problem this unhappiness that spreads through my soul like a wild fire knowing that everything isn't at my disposal including a grip on reality. Perhaps I've coaxed myself in to thinking that I needed a change , when in reality it could of just been the people around me. There's no going back and that scares me. Why does every decision have to be final? I'm afraid to hurt the people I care for with the truth, but then again what do I care of what they think about my choices they don't have to live with it. Now I clearly see why judgment isn't ours to give out. I'm not alone I'm almost sure of it that there are other's like me out there and I feel no need to find you and communicate with you because you might just bring to light my defect.................. You are me.
It's so much harder to face reality than it is to face fantasy and maybe, perhaps that's how people go insane. I feel nothing anymore I wish I did but instead I'm empty and I can't quit say that's a feeling for it's really nothing. I won't sacrifice my soul over this. I just want to feel like others and this is my plead for you to hear me. If I fall now will you catch me shield me from my destructive self. Don' t make the choices mine anymore I can't bear the thought of letting myself down once again. With more disappointment comes my slowly fading far away. There are times that I should be crying and I just sit there staring blankly ahead doing nothing, feeling nothing, it's nothing wondering why the tears just won't release it's self from my soul instead of stifling me. Perhaps if I just let my self feel give in to my emotions and let the world know that I 'm just like them able to feel I wouldn't be so unhappy. Yet I try and separate myself front the world choosing not to feel in front of them in fear of rejection, prejudication and persecution. The tragedy is my life, for I care to much to be in it, breath in it, live in it and take part of it. Unfortunately the decisions in life are all mine to make, screw up, manipulate, contemplate, reciprocate and devastate others with. I can chose this day to wallow in myself pity or I can chose this day to see life in a different aspect...................... Taking it on straight a head no smoke screams, cover ups, sugar coatings or anymore lies just as it is dealing with the fact that nothing is ever perfect and that's okay. I chose not to live my life by the fairy tales given to us in books or movies. I now know that I poses the ability to do something better, i'm now looking to the future to guide me leaving my past as a memory at last.

Adulterer

You have now made a destructive path, you are finally left with nothing and that's excatly what you deserve, you............... Bastard. May your heart bleed like those you hurt and may you feel every sting that should come your way. Have you no remorse? The only reason why you feel this time is that you got caught and perhaps the tears that now flow from your eyes are fake. I've got news for you stop your crying for no one is pitying you, and open your eyes now to your dome that lays ahead. You have no one to blame but yourself, no one to fall on, no shoulder to cry on, no one, not a soul when it comes down to the end of the day, don't wallow in yourself pity no one feels for you, no one now cares for you, your absolutely alone...... and this time for good no one will save you this time.

May your mistakes repeat in your mind time and time again for you thought you were smooth and could pull the world over everyone's eyes ha this time you're caught and there is nothing you can do or say to make it right cause it will never be that way again. There are only so many chances you get and then you strike out. I feel nothing for your lost for you knew what you got yourself into, how could you of not you repeated it over and over again. You never really stop to think about anyone else, just that your needs were met. You'll now lose everything you've ever know cared about, lived for, and would die for and for the sake of what? At the end of the day can you really say you have happiness now?

How does it feel to no longer have a disguise your standing there absolutely naked, exposed for everyone now to see the real you. I can't even begin to say how disgusted I am with what you've don't for disgust doesn't justify it, the word is so much better than you are. Mad, mad doesn't even describe what I feel towards you mad, anger fustrated, hatred, I'll never be able to express it and I'm sure neither will she.
How are you able to take someone's fragile emotions and crush them repeatedly and then think that sorry will make it better? This is not like kissing a sore this is a battle scar.

May you be kicked down to the bottomless pits, were you are no longer able to show your eyes, your face for you are no longer worthy. We call you a pathological liar, your unable to feel anything when you did it so don't come now with your sappy story, you were good and maybe too good............... and if we hadn't caught you it would of gone on forever. You never intend to stop did you?................. and maybe that's what will hurt in the end. Thank you for now demonstrating even the kind-ess person can't be trusted for none of us will ever be fooled again. I've open my eyes to this society being a victim of this same kind of abuse I no longer feel anything for anyone remotely like you. You've jeopardize every thing and for what? Do you even know anymore?
Breath in deeply, may your nightmare now consume you.

(I found out that my friends man was cheating on her, and when I confronted him he lied to all our faces and then I started to think to myself that he could never do anything like this, he slept with another girl more than once, more than twice, just this time I caught him in his lie. The girl he slept with is my friend also and neither one of them new anything about the other, victims from the same guy. I never wanted to say anything to her until I had sufficient evidence, but she already knew and how could I lie to her when she asked? His girlfriend who just had his kid which is now six months old doesn't live here and he's willing to jeopardize everything for what................... a fling? He got himself in trouble and has to stay here under my mom's supervision, and his girlfriend was willing to give up everything for him, move here till he could come back home so that he could still develop a relationship with his daughter, and they both were just down here a month ago to visit. Love is so blind, it's not suppose to hurt like that so maybe there was only really one person loving to begin with.

I hate people who cheat so if my words seem harsh it's the heat of the moment cause I two was cheated on and I didn't see till it was to late. No one cared to tell me till way after. I was never in love with the guy so it didn't hurt to long, but i can now see how it is different. I hope this post will describe to all those who cheated what kind of hatred you have now led ( unleashed) others to have. I feel for her but there isn't a thing I could do, this goes out to him and the guys to come that will try this shit again and come back with their crocodile tears.............. Please I don't want to hear anymore lies.)
With time everything will eventually heal......... i now know that i hope she will find that in time also.

Your not alone

You are unable to feel anything now but emptiness, and even then I'm not so sure if that's a feeling it's more of a void. Why do we wait till it's to late to tell people how we feel? We posses these feeling in us so that we can relate better to people and perhaps let them have a look into the soul of our inner being. The fear of rejection now a days out ways the emotion/feeling of love or any other kind of feelings for that matter.......... Why is that? We have everything to gain if we just express ourselves to that person, and nothing to gain if we forever hold it inside. An emotion is like a million words of how you feel put into one. You would rather sit there and deny it to yourself as a pose to expressing it. Denying it in every way till you can't contain it no more and one day it burst out in desperation now realizing that it's to late, that person you have now tried to captive by contemplating to long has now moved on without you and your emotions have now sketched it's self into your soul, and embedded it's self in to your mind, leaving you with a taste of regret.

"Regret is an odd emotion because it comes only upon reflection. Regret lacks immediacy, and so its power seldom influences events when it could do some good."
William O'Rourke quotes

You can't help who you like but you can have a say in what you do about it. In life there are things we do or things we don't do. Here are your choices pick one and may it lead you to triumph not regret, Life's to short for that.

"I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said, than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life had been like if I'd just been myself."
irish
Brittany Renée quotes

Life

This is life huh? Our mere existence is base upon whether we chose to get out of bed or sit there in our unbathe skin and soak in the aroma of the morning pouring through our windows. Perhaps life has more to offer but we just settle for the minimum everyday, not caring to know what else is there beyond our comfort zone. Sometimes not knowing seems better and maybe that's why today when I look at the youth and the world seeing how lazy they've become embedding themselves in this so called routine filled with emptiness, it surprises me on how one could not reach out for something more. What is it about our comfort zones that we aren't willing to let go of? Isn't the whole point of coming out of the comfort zone to experience something out of the norm, unusual,and sensational? Something that will give our lives a boost from it's usual slow routinely passe?
How is it that people see themselves in this slow passe life forever, some how claiming it to be stability? Stability is a word that means many things for stability is within the reach of change. Only absent minded people stay in one spot and the inspired move on without them. Who knows maybe in some cases a change in routine will cause one to gain proper stability or even a better understanding of what a routine change can do in one's life.
This so called routine everyone likes to take is consuming the way for change in our life. Live a little take a different route to work, eat something other than cereal in the morning and maybe instead of coffee to wake you up go to bed early etc... Drastic changes aren't need to make change it's the little things in life that can be the most harmful if we don't change it. Change depends on the persons ability to be motivated and for how long.
Have you ever wonder how someone gets bored? I believe it's the result of not letting the mind expanded into other possibilities out side of their routine. Our life doesn't live around planning everything down to the last moment so that we'd know where we stand, leave a little room to be spontaneous. When we chose to forever hold on to our routine we become stagnant and robotized. I believe to fear change is to fear the future, and to fear the future is perhaps ones choice but we would probably be better off to embrace it.

The Way Back

I don't know how it's possible that I've wondered so far from God. How my light has dimmed out from the one that has never turned his back on me. No this isn't one of those sites where I sit here and say repent now for the world is at and end, for you see I believe everyone should have an opinion whether they believe in God or going to church, and I respect that. However for me personally I feel like I didn't do everything in my powers to hang on to God and what he stands for. I grew up in the church but some how that dimmed out cause there are to many people in there that were ready to judge me and make my life come to everyone's attention around them as oppose to just focusing on their not so stable life. They obviously don't know that when they're quick to point the finger, three point back at them.
I haven't been to church in lord knows how long but I still abide by my religion cause it's all I've known since I was young. I also think it is a possibility that I didn't try hard enough at keeping strong, like my mom always says you don't need to go to church to worship God you can do it from your very home. I sing in a church choir of the same religion different church, but I go to practice yet I don't find myself at any of the places where we are suppose to sing or church it's self. I wonder because of my slowly slipping away from God has it cost me happiness in my life? Sure I have the temporary happiness, I've gone and still do go to bars on occasions but in the end which is this present moment it's like I'm over that phase and I find myself standing all alone cause no one can relate with me. If I turn to the church they look down on what I've done and if I turn to my friends most of them aren't religious and don't understand what I'm going through. My friends are still there enjoying themselves and I'm there thinking why do I still do this. No it's not because I search for approval among my group of friends it's just that there isn't much else to do that I could call fun. It's like I want to give up this life I have now and turn back to when my life as a child was innocent and the choices weren't mine to screw up.
I know that the present is my destiny and the past I can not change, so I shouldn't sit here regretting anything that I've done for the mere fact that everything was suppose to happen due to destiny, and destiny is what shapes the person we are today. The past is what helps us face the future, it's what enables us to move on from where we've screwed up or left off.
I have faith in myself to make the right judgments and choices in my future, but what I fear is my capability to stick by them. If one doesn't have morals then where does the line fall between things being acceptable and non acceptable?
I don't fear for one second that God is with me and hasn't turned his back on me, for I've done a lot of stupid things where it could have gone wrong, but only by the grace of God he didn't let anything happen to me. I believe I'm still here for the mere reason that my mission on earth isn't complete. I try to understand why I value life so much as oppose to time, for time is what prolongs life. I've yet to come up with something but when I do you'll be the first to know.
I believe that the future holds change and that change within it's self is never limited but endless of possibilities and that our faults aren't entirely to be blamed on us but the fact that destiny is what guides us whether we embrace it or not.

I'm not sure if I'm ready for the road that lies a head but I pray Lord that you will forgive my sins............. For I know that my journey will lead me back to you.

Love or something like it

How is it that there are so many meanings for the word love yet more than half the population want this word to mean the same thing?. Why can't we just put our own meaning definition to love? What is it about these words that makes one quiver? How is it that this phrase I love you can turn someone off so fast yet turn another on?

How do we find ourselves in the position of being incapable of loving? I always thought it was in everyone. How are we unable to make the person we love feel the same way about us? What is it about this emotion that drives people to do crazy things? If love is suppose to be a good thing why do we find so many people killing there spouse, significant other in the name of love? If this is love then I don't want it, I don't want to be near it, I don't want to hear it, and I sure as hell don't want to have someone love me that way. I guess you could say I'm scared not of the word its self but of what it implies. What happens if someone should say I love you..... And we find ourselves not feeling that way about the person? What should happen next? Why do so many people think that when they love someone the other person should feel the same way about them, and when they find out they don't the relationship is ruined? For all of you out there who apply with this let me tell you something love is the feeling you posses, it's what you should feel towards that person no matter what happens whether they say I love you or not. It is not to be based on whether the other person says it to you. It could just be that they haven't reached that point and you have reached it there sooner in the relationship than they have. If they're to love you they will when they reach that point, not because you have said the words to them but because they actually are ready to take the next step.
Why is it that some of us fear love? I believe it to be because with loving someone comes the part of being vulnerable by giving part of yourself to that person who has captured this emotion. It may not be easy to give up this part of you to someone who may or may not understand where your coming from because they have different insights on things, but just consider that they have given up just as much of themselves to you as you have for them. The relationship is only as good as the giver puts into it, and you get out of it what you put in. I can see people fearing the words I love you because there are to many people in this world who use it frivolously, in some sense only to get someone to sleep with them.
What is love suppose to feel like? I mean I've often thought to myself is it possible to love someone whom you've never been in a relationship with and I'm talking about deeply loving them not the friendship kind of love? What kind of sensation comes along with loving someone? Am I suppose to put my own meaning/sensation to love so if I happen to get dizzy every time I see this person is that my own sign sensation to myself that I love them? I just don't get it..... People always tell me when it happens you'll know, and what happens if I miss it? Now how is this suppose to happen if I don't have am outline on what kind of sensation I should be feeling? See this is what it boils down to society tells us how we should feel and what kind of sensation comes with every kind of feeling such as when you get mad, sad, angry, happy, overjoyed etc... Except they don't tell you what sensation your suppose to feel when your actually in love. In the dictionary it tells you what you should feel but it doesn't tell you what sensation comes with loving someone. Is love suppose to be shown physically or just as an emotion? I suppose I could go on and on about something I have never experienced and get no where or I could just wait to see if one day I'll recognize love instead of understanding it. I leave you with this, I don't doubt for one second that there is love out there for all of us, it's up to us to find it and embrace it. We can't forever be afraid to love someone in fear, but be ready to love someone knowing there may be consequences and down falls to come with it. "Love is always open arms. If you close your arms about love you will find that you are left holding only yourself." ~ by Leo Buscaglia ~

Taking destiny of life

Just be content with who you are as a person, for we are individually unique. You are nothing to the person who doesn't chose to look past your appearance, but you are something to the person that takes the time to get to know you better. If you should die today just know that you will be remembered as you were yesterday, your memories will live on in those who took the moment to get to know you, and your past will become a legacy of its own.
If you should chose to love, love with the deepest feelings you can possess within you and if you should chose to waste your time on hate, hate with all your might for it will take everything in you to keep that hate strong causing your soul to weaken. If you should chose to speak sense may your words be like daggers piercing the hearts of others while transforming them in a positive way, and if you should chose to speak non sense may your words be forgotten. If you should chose this day to change may your journey take you to the place you want to be and may your struggles not be in vein. If you should keep putting off your chance for change for tomorrow know this, nothing is for certain in this world you may die in you sleep and your journey will end there.
Know that the road that lies ahead is a twisted winding road, where you may encounter some stumbling paths making you unsure of your choice for the chance of change but if you envision your goal of how the end should be you can accomplish it. If you should give up on whatever you set your mind out to do may your dreams not die or lie there dormant. If you should chose to waste your breath on arguing make sure you have a point and let it not to be just to justify that you're right. May your knowledge of life be gained in your everyday activities. May you be deeply spirited in what you believe, laugh at and with yourself before others can truly laugh with you. "It is important that man dreams, but it is perhaps equally important that he can laugh at his own dreams." - Lin Yutang. If you look to the future you will sore like an eagle and if you should look to the past you'll forever stay there stuck on replay. Give and you shall receive back. If you should take into account every bad word people say to or about you it will seep through your veins like poison, eating away at your insides leaving you with the feeling of emptiness, dismiss it and you will be all that more of a better person for it. Listen closely to what your friend may be saying but listen not closely to what your enemy utters. Keep your friends close and your enemies even closer.
May you never stay mad for more than just a minute, for if you let time pass to long it may be the last words you say to that person. May you never wait for a tragedy to make things better, for one day it will be too late. May you never have to look to anyone to justify who you are, for you know yourself better than anyone if you would just care enough to dig deep inside you will see. If you should say you will do something for someone try more than your best to keep your word. May you care enough to intervene if a friends life is in danger. May you make mistakes and learn from them, and pity the person who repeats them time and time again. If you should hold the mistakes of others against them throwing it back into there face, you have then demonstrated you are not a good friend. Be a shoulder to cry on, be a friend dependable to call on, and keep and out reached hand ready to pick your friend up if he or she should fall. If you see someone in need may you help them whether it be with food, water, clothing, or money for you could probably find yourself in the same situation wanting these very things waiting for a helping hand.
May your life be destined to knowing that knowledge is power and that a fool which closes his eyes to everything can not take anything with him as oppose to the person that keeps there eyes open to everything life shows or displays in front of them taking it as there inspiration for today and always. If you should chose to experience anything may you experience it to its fullest. May your eyes be open and your soul touched, and may you cherish life from this day forward. My wish for all of you is to never give up on yourselves for everything is achievable and possible, start to envision and get there. I wish you all the safest most productive journey, now go and find your end to your struggling paths, and a way to your bright future.

Look!........ Your Beautiful

Smile your beautiful. Your the product of something great, hand pick you were then made. Molded together you were then given a name. You are the definition of what's real a flawless, hospitable human being. Individual and unique you were put here to define true beauty which is first conceived from within.
Let not beauty be fooling to the eyes, for it all starts deep down from inside. A person may wear there beauty upon there face or body but that one day may fade away. If your looking for someone who is beautiful you need to look at them from deep within.
How many people have you passed up being friends with because you didn't think they fit your physical description of Beauty?....... Or maybe it wasn't really you passing them up they just saw right through you for the shallow, mindless person that you are. How did you know for sure that you didn't just pass up a potential friend, best friend (who you never know may of been able to help you with life down the road), or a soul mate? What if you were his or her last chance? Would you of stepped in then knowing what you know now? We never realize how bad we hurt someone until we've shunned them away don't wait for that cause some day it might be to late.
The first question I ask myself when something doesn't seem to be beautiful is why do I think it's not beautiful. And very shortly you discover that there is no reason. -John Cage

Personify beauty from within you. Let the people around you know it's more than just the outward appearance. Beauty is in us all whether you believe your heart is blacken, whether you've done wrong to someone, those are just mistakes that can be redeemed. Humble yourself enough to associate with the people you think are beneath you.
For those of you who think your not beautiful because someone has said so then they must of not taken a good look at you. Your beautiful not because someone expresses the words to you but because your content with your inner self, and being excepting of different people is part of your inner being. Believe in yourself that your beautiful and to hell with the rest of the world.

Beauty of a Person~

The beauty of a Person is not in the clothes they wears, The figure/build they may carry, or the way they comb their hair. The beauty of a person must be seen from their eyes, Because that is the doorway to their heart, The place where love resides. The beauty of a person Is not in a facial mole, But true beauty in a person is reflected in their soul. It is the caring that they lovingly give, The passion that they shows. The beauty of a person With passing years -- only grows. - author Unknown

I changed this poem up a bite to say "person" cause yes guys also can be beautiful to, so the real poem goes like this maybe I shoul not have changed it but I wanted my point to be justified and this was the perfect poem to do it. The original poem is underneath

Beauty of a Woman~

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, The figure she carries, or the way she combs her hair. The beauty of a woman must be seen from her eyes, Because that is the doorway to her heart, The place where love resides. The beauty of a woman Is not in a facial mole, But true beauty in a woman is reflected in her soul. It is the caring that she lovingly gives, The passion that she shows. The beauty of a woman With passing years -- only grows. ~ author Unknown

Beauty in things lies in the mind which contemplates them ~ Edgar Allen Poe

Don't live your life by What if

I've often found myself finding comfort in the words what if.......... I was confident in myself that these words would help me find away. What I've done is shadowed myself from realizing that these very words have distorted my vision, and hindering my mind giving me a place of comfort so that I wouldn't have to face the inevitable that's to take place in my life.
What I've realize is that I've made a way out of dealing with the issue avoiding my problem with a question without filling in the blank. It's like a vicious cycle... If I keep telling myself what if and you keep telling yourself what if we never have to face the answer head on. You see we barely exist here, for if we chose not to take part in our life by filling in the blank then our lives will forever be stagnant, redundant , unadventurous for we've chosen to be careless in taking the same path.
What's that saying......... Oh yes " we only live once" So if this true and whether you chose to live by it or not, don't we deserve to be unchained, released, and relinquished from this question we hide behind? How is it that we've managed as humans to let these two letter words become so dominate in our lives?
The only things that What if can guarantee us is that the problem where faced with will never be solved or deplete but accumulate because we will forever find more reasons not to do or deal with it.
We should get it out of our system now, so what if blank (you can fill in the space) should happen? If it's suppose to happen it will, not because we have chosen to do it or not, but because we can't stop the inevitable from happening. We shouldn't be hinder from taking the appropriate chances at gaining more control over our lives, because we can not for see what the future holds. If you should fall just pick yourself right up and dust off. If we take but only a small step we never know where it might lead us think of it as a leap of faith trusting in yourself to make the right decision........... And it wouldn't be all that bad. Would it?

What do we do when life sucks just that bad? I mean what are we suppose to really get from life? Should it matter the lessons we learn? For in the end we will all be dead and nothing we've learn we can take with us or pass on. A lesson to be learned is nothing unless you've experienced it yourself. For all those who hate to get up or think that life isn't just worth the living here's something for you to think about. Your already in it maybe not by choice and if your going to be in it don't torture yourself anymore with reality and stop torturing the people around you. There are choices and whether you want to take the shitty way out a cowards way by committing suicide then maybe it's your choice, like the saying says everything happends for a reason and when it's your time it's your time, but what's the point in committing suicide?..... Is it like one last screw you to the world? And does it say the same message to your love one's? If anything the world is what will get the last laugh literally for you see you'll cease to exist and the world will still be there trying to get into the minds of others. Think of it this way if you should commit suicide there is a great chance you'll succeed and die, but what about that other percent which says there is a chance that you'll live? Now if you should live what happends to you then?? You've just proven to yourself it's not your time to go, why get to that point? You could of easily prevented all that drama by confessing the problem to yourself first and then seeking help. Seeking help is for the brave not the weak, for the day that we can all admit that we can't do it on our own is the day we step to becoming a better person. Sure death is inevitable but why choose it before your time and then later on regret it silently in your grave. Shit happends and yet life still goes on so shouldn't you?