Time is of the essence

Live each moment to it's fullest for you never know what tomorrow has enstore for you. Life is a precious gift and no matter how hard it is to be in it at times, we poses the ability to do something about it. We shouldn't always have to take the hard way to learn these lessons of life.
There is no past it's gone and there is no future because it hasn't past. All we have to look to is this moment, the present, right now we need not look to far away from it before we lose ourselves from within. Everything we encounter in life can be incorporated into making us a better person. We all poses the passion within ourselves to be better, but most of us lack the drive.
So many people think life isn't' worth the living unless you have someone to live it for. If you aren't able to make yourself happy how do you expect to make someone else happy? You're not to be selfish in bring someone into your life in thinking that they will make it better. It's not fair to depend on someone you want to be with to bring you that kind of happiness, you should poses happiness from within before you embed yourself into the life of another. If we would just take the time to focus on ourselves in finding out who we really are deep down inside most of us wouldn't be so unhappy or putting ourselves in unhappy relationships.
"Our greatest happiness does not depend on the condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result of a good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just pursuits."~ Thomas Jefferson
In order to be a better person we should start to really find ourselves. My mom told me once never be afraid to stand alone. Some "me" time would be a start, meditating on the things you want to accomplish or be. Anything in life is possible the only person who could stop you is you. The road blocks in life are to give us that determination to keep going and never give up, when face with a road block you should always remember there is another way it's just up to us to find it.
We all know that there is something better in life enstore for us, if we just envision what we want we could get there, with time anything is possible.
"Our attitude toward life determines life's attitude towards us." ~Earl Nightingale

Relinquished

What you think or believe to be me was of the past and that scares me. I'm unable at this point to pin point my problem this unhappiness that spreads through my soul like a wild fire knowing that everything isn't at my disposal including a grip on reality. Perhaps I've coaxed myself in to thinking that I needed a change , when in reality it could of just been the people around me. There's no going back and that scares me. Why does every decision have to be final? I'm afraid to hurt the people I care for with the truth, but then again what do I care of what they think about my choices they don't have to live with it. Now I clearly see why judgment isn't ours to give out. I'm not alone I'm almost sure of it that there are other's like me out there and I feel no need to find you and communicate with you because you might just bring to light my defect.................. You are me.
It's so much harder to face reality than it is to face fantasy and maybe, perhaps that's how people go insane. I feel nothing anymore I wish I did but instead I'm empty and I can't quit say that's a feeling for it's really nothing. I won't sacrifice my soul over this. I just want to feel like others and this is my plead for you to hear me. If I fall now will you catch me shield me from my destructive self. Don' t make the choices mine anymore I can't bear the thought of letting myself down once again. With more disappointment comes my slowly fading far away. There are times that I should be crying and I just sit there staring blankly ahead doing nothing, feeling nothing, it's nothing wondering why the tears just won't release it's self from my soul instead of stifling me. Perhaps if I just let my self feel give in to my emotions and let the world know that I 'm just like them able to feel I wouldn't be so unhappy. Yet I try and separate myself front the world choosing not to feel in front of them in fear of rejection, prejudication and persecution. The tragedy is my life, for I care to much to be in it, breath in it, live in it and take part of it. Unfortunately the decisions in life are all mine to make, screw up, manipulate, contemplate, reciprocate and devastate others with. I can chose this day to wallow in myself pity or I can chose this day to see life in a different aspect...................... Taking it on straight a head no smoke screams, cover ups, sugar coatings or anymore lies just as it is dealing with the fact that nothing is ever perfect and that's okay. I chose not to live my life by the fairy tales given to us in books or movies. I now know that I poses the ability to do something better, i'm now looking to the future to guide me leaving my past as a memory at last.

Adulterer

You have now made a destructive path, you are finally left with nothing and that's excatly what you deserve, you............... Bastard. May your heart bleed like those you hurt and may you feel every sting that should come your way. Have you no remorse? The only reason why you feel this time is that you got caught and perhaps the tears that now flow from your eyes are fake. I've got news for you stop your crying for no one is pitying you, and open your eyes now to your dome that lays ahead. You have no one to blame but yourself, no one to fall on, no shoulder to cry on, no one, not a soul when it comes down to the end of the day, don't wallow in yourself pity no one feels for you, no one now cares for you, your absolutely alone...... and this time for good no one will save you this time.

May your mistakes repeat in your mind time and time again for you thought you were smooth and could pull the world over everyone's eyes ha this time you're caught and there is nothing you can do or say to make it right cause it will never be that way again. There are only so many chances you get and then you strike out. I feel nothing for your lost for you knew what you got yourself into, how could you of not you repeated it over and over again. You never really stop to think about anyone else, just that your needs were met. You'll now lose everything you've ever know cared about, lived for, and would die for and for the sake of what? At the end of the day can you really say you have happiness now?

How does it feel to no longer have a disguise your standing there absolutely naked, exposed for everyone now to see the real you. I can't even begin to say how disgusted I am with what you've don't for disgust doesn't justify it, the word is so much better than you are. Mad, mad doesn't even describe what I feel towards you mad, anger fustrated, hatred, I'll never be able to express it and I'm sure neither will she.
How are you able to take someone's fragile emotions and crush them repeatedly and then think that sorry will make it better? This is not like kissing a sore this is a battle scar.

May you be kicked down to the bottomless pits, were you are no longer able to show your eyes, your face for you are no longer worthy. We call you a pathological liar, your unable to feel anything when you did it so don't come now with your sappy story, you were good and maybe too good............... and if we hadn't caught you it would of gone on forever. You never intend to stop did you?................. and maybe that's what will hurt in the end. Thank you for now demonstrating even the kind-ess person can't be trusted for none of us will ever be fooled again. I've open my eyes to this society being a victim of this same kind of abuse I no longer feel anything for anyone remotely like you. You've jeopardize every thing and for what? Do you even know anymore?
Breath in deeply, may your nightmare now consume you.

(I found out that my friends man was cheating on her, and when I confronted him he lied to all our faces and then I started to think to myself that he could never do anything like this, he slept with another girl more than once, more than twice, just this time I caught him in his lie. The girl he slept with is my friend also and neither one of them new anything about the other, victims from the same guy. I never wanted to say anything to her until I had sufficient evidence, but she already knew and how could I lie to her when she asked? His girlfriend who just had his kid which is now six months old doesn't live here and he's willing to jeopardize everything for what................... a fling? He got himself in trouble and has to stay here under my mom's supervision, and his girlfriend was willing to give up everything for him, move here till he could come back home so that he could still develop a relationship with his daughter, and they both were just down here a month ago to visit. Love is so blind, it's not suppose to hurt like that so maybe there was only really one person loving to begin with.

I hate people who cheat so if my words seem harsh it's the heat of the moment cause I two was cheated on and I didn't see till it was to late. No one cared to tell me till way after. I was never in love with the guy so it didn't hurt to long, but i can now see how it is different. I hope this post will describe to all those who cheated what kind of hatred you have now led ( unleashed) others to have. I feel for her but there isn't a thing I could do, this goes out to him and the guys to come that will try this shit again and come back with their crocodile tears.............. Please I don't want to hear anymore lies.)
With time everything will eventually heal......... i now know that i hope she will find that in time also.